trust...?!

Well that didn't go at all how I imagined the different outcomes.... So now you know the 'big' secret... happy? Cos I know im not. I took a risk to prove that i trust you and now look... you wont even talk to me... Im too stubborn to talk to you first and I can guess your not about to talk to me either.... I dont even know wht to do now... Before i told you i could pretend it wasn't real and tht it didnt matter, well now i have to face everything i have to wake up and realise that i might loose you. I didn't picture it happening like this, You were either suppose to tell me you felt the same or that you didn't feel the same but it didnt matter and we could still be friends.... but i guess thats not how its suppose to go is it? I wish it was but reality has hit me and I now wish i could take back last night and stop it all from coming out... If im going to loose you as one of my best friend I want to fight first, i want to try to make you stop leaving me, i want to fight for the friendship we had and i most of all want to fight for you. I trust you 100 percent and i always have done, telling you this hasn't proved to me that i trust you i already knew that, and now i don't even know if your my friend much less trust me. I dont care that were not together because your friendship has always meant more to me, so just because I want more doesn't mean it has to be more... I dont think i want to lose my friend over me wanting more so dont let it happen that way?