Him

I miss him more than I say... Talking about him brings a lump to my throught and I find it hard to concentrate when I think. I know its been 2 weeks but that still doesn't get rid of the shock, shock that I wont see his name online ever again, shock thatt I knew it would happen but wasn't expecting it. I just can't seem to get my head around it :L I wish I could...

The BEAUTIFUL weather :D

Well i would say that today an yesterday the weather has been bum... but i've never really understood tht... :P
No this weather has been... BANGTIDY! well inlove with all this sun an stuff! I burn i tan, i tan it stays for a year.. s'all good :D Yesterday was so frickin gorgeous! Today wa ite.. Clouds got in the way tho -.- Chapman, Tasha an Stacey came over, played sum games and i got water thrown over me... (Y) funn day tbh!! <3<3<3

random thing :P

'I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I am nothing special; just common, and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who’s ever lived: I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough. ‘ <3

RIP... ILOVEYOU!

We went through quite a fair bit to say I only knew you for like 3 month :LL I loved you from way before I said. I never got chance to say it again before you passed... I wish I had, because now thats all I think about... How much I love you and you didn't even know :L Ill never forget you, no matter how much people tell me to let go... I wont. I shed a tear or two for you, and I don't care any more... iloveyou Jordan. I did before we went out and before you told me you loved me... If I'd had the courage to tell you before that... Would things have been any different? <3 Love youu!

Poems

I like writing poems... There's just something about it thaat when i write one i just feel so happy. I feel chuffed with my sen when I write one that i think is good and i feel even better when my friends say there good too :')

Well heres a few of my favourites so far....

-Final Goodbye

We had our time

We had our fun

It was never a crime

To say i loved you under the sun.

Yes, maybe you once cared

And i did too.

But with so little time shared

Maybe it was best you flew.

Futher down the line

Than i once thought

It was yours and mine

A lesson well taught.

So this is me saying 

I still love you

This is me saying

My final goodbye

-See me?

Your always there,

Whether in sight or not.

I dont know if you care

And maybe this is a long shot.

But throughout this all,

The pain, the smiles you never see

It makes me feel so small.

Do you even see me?

I look around

Hoping to see you there

I walk around

And think of the memories we share.

SO this is where

I explain all the above

And even though you wont care

I know im still in love.

-Before the End

Crashing through my dream

Reasling things aren't what they seem

Moving on forever

Not gunna' look back. Not never.

Time came and went

Since you were sent

Away, that caused pain

Which filled me with shame.

Im not weak.

Maybe a freak.

But you made me,

Just what I tried not to be.

I wont lie,

My feelings weren't shy.

But I'll tell you this,

I don't miss your kiss.

I miss the friend

I had before the end.

You changed when you went,

Without my consent.

Come back to before the end,

And be that friend.

I want the old you

The one before you flew.

Before the End

Thats where we belong.

-Months, Days, Years...

Counting down the days,

Until i see your face,

Time closing in all 

Around me, waiting for the call.

You came back here,

Maybe not as near

As i hoped for,

But i guess thats the score.

You changed when you left,

Maybe not lying or theft,

But you've lost that spark

The one that left a mark

On my thoughts.

I was never caught

After the break

And i can't help feeling, i made a mistake.

I wish you'd talk to me

Like you did when you were free,

Of all the things that hold

You back now, you seem so cold.

Month, days, years

Most spent in tears.

I wish you did too,

It would show you once loved me before you flew.

-For Good

The sun, trees , moon

They all come back, unlike you.

All the waiting

Was for nothing.

You've left for good

Never coming back like you should.

Ill miss you more

Now you closed the door,

For good.

Pain and loss

It hurts when someone leaves for good, it hurts more when the last memory you have isn't the version of that person you loved. You fall for the fun bubbly livley amaazing person and the last time you speak to them you get this cold person who isnt even the same... It hurts. :'(

Music is me !

I'm in love with music! I couldn't live a day without some form of music and I listen to literally any thing. I like things from Dubstep all the way up to the girliest things. I'm in love with every single Adele song and I don't even care that there all depressing... she's amaaazing! Taylor Swift is such an amaazing artist and I love every song I here from her. Kings Of Leon are too cool for words and I know all the words to most of their songs from both their albums... I'm just that cool :D . Mumford and Sons, Panic At The Disco, All Time Low and Boys Like Girls  are my newest selection of new music that I've grown to love... There is another side to me that has a soft spot for the likes of Danny Bond, Dubstep, Tom Zanetti and most dance beats, I hear any of these for the first time and I already love them.
I have my headphones in or music playing all day and if I could I would sleep with it on. Music I suppose you could say is my life. I'll listen to anything first before I make my decision :D !

Me..

Well I'm pretty much the type if girl who fantasises about the future and what I will do but at the moment im just your average teenager.... moody, always sleeping and texting... I spend half of my night on my laptop whether that be on msn or Facebook. I've resonantly come to the conclusion that everything happens for a reason, we have no control over what happens in the world and sometimes you can't even control your feelings... You can tell your self you don't like someone but you always know deep down your lying to your self, you can tell your self to stop but you know you wont... I learnt this and that was the moment I realised that stuff happens and you cant control it. I am so thankful to all my friends who are always there to catch me when I fall, and through out it all will always some how make me smile and forget for the time that everything is messed up.

Hey..

Heyy,
Well this is me. I am 15 years old and I live with my mum, dad and older brother, I have two older brothers but the eldest moved out last year... I don't mind I got his room :P.
My friends and family surround me and without them I would actually not survive one single day. I love them all!
If you saw me you'd most likely see me with my earphones in with a book in my hand in my own world, or with my friends being stupid and random. I love the rain so much it calms me! Music is my life and without fail I listen to it everyday, I love to read and could lose my self in any book.
Well this is just a small insight to who I am and for now thats all your gunna get! :P
Final thought;
If you had to choose between two paths, The Right: Where there's nothing left or The Left: Where theres nothing  right which would you choose?