What to do...

What do I do when I think I like you? When I've always just thought of you as just you but suddenly things change and your no long just you... Your more. I love you but what can I do about it? You make me smile and make me feel good but what if that's just you being a friend? What if I just got confused and thought you like me? What am I suppose to do!? I want to know what you feel and I want to know what would happen in the future... Would we still be friends? Would it be awkward? I just want to know!

What do I do

When I think I like you?

Should I tell him,

Or keep it locked in?

Things aren't making sense

And im stuck on this fence.

Nearly four years.

Will the fifth end in tears?

If I told you

What would you do?

Would you say you felt the same

Or fill me with pain?

Will I loose you,

As my friend or will you stay true?

No-one can solve

What problems I hold.

So I will lock it up.

Wish me luck...?

I just need to know! Why isn't anything simple? Why can't I read your mind?! Why am I so weak?...

I don't know what to do any more... and I'm stuck thinking about you hoping your thinking about me! Why can't it just happen! Why can't, if you do like me, tell me so I can tell you?! Maybe I should just tell you... Maybe I should take a risk... But is is too big of a risk to take? I know my friends will be there for me  whatever I chose to do but even with them all behind me all the way I still don't think I'm strong enough for the pain all this will cause... I wish I were stronger then I would be able to tell you without the panic of getting hurt. Maybe I should just do it... You only live once right?